hetalia_kink | Hetalia Kink meme part 15

Something steaming hot and wet drips onto Alfred’s bare shoulders, out of his own eyes, and Arthur holds him until the trembles and sobs die down, until Alfred blinks, bleary with exhaustion.

“Sleep, Alfred,” Arthur murmurs softly. It’s a command, and Alfred curls up on the covers, head resting against the soft, downy pillows, allowing Arthur to brush the hair from his eyes, to tuck him into bed like his mother always used to. “Alfred, I’m sorry, I’m so sorry, I never… If I had known…”

(Arthur’s eyes flit to his finger, where the nail has been torn off, only one of many visible scars from his enslavement.)

As Alfred is drifting off, cozy and tucked into the hotel blankets, he feels Arthur’s hot breath against his ear, hears the soft accent as he murmurs, “I’ll get you out of this. Don’t worry, I promise I won’t let them ever hurt you again. Do you… Do you want that? Do you want to come back home with me?”

Alfred’s never thought of living with the Kirklands’ as home. He hasn’t felt at home since his parents died.

But he nods, mainly because he has forgotten how to say no.

_{Grr character limits.

Thank you all for reading! Comments? Concrit?}

You almost made me cry, and I never cry! This is amazingly heartbreaking. (I'm so glad Arthur found him in the end.)

*crying eyes out*

Arthur, you suck.

I almost cried. Oh god this just.. I'm simultaneously angry with Arthur and so so thankful for him. ;~;

I read, I bawled, I commented. It's just so hopeless up till the end, and wow Arthur you'd better feel like shit now.

I'm optimistic, but Al's gonna need more than a few hugs to recover from that.

As someone whose latest university project was a communication campaign against human trafficking, I'm glad you wrote it like this 'cause otherwise it'd had been unrealistic. Like you said, that's human trafficking (not that I approve it, god, no).

And I think like everyone here, I'm upset with Arthur, I hope his conscience doesn't ever let him sleep again. But I'm glad he saved Alfred, late, but at least he did it. Still, I felt really bad for Alfred ;~; I didn't realize I was crying till I finished reading this.

DDD: I feel horrible for wanting more, but I do. Would a sequel with rehabilitating Alfred be possible?

If not, that's okay. This is a great and heart breaking fic on its own.

Seconding puppy-eyed question if a sequel would be possible, but don't feel pressed. This fill is strangely beautiful as it is.

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Really nice ending author anon.I hope that Arthur can get him some help.

Anon, this...oh God, this broke my fucking heart. It's just--it's nine thousand different kinds of sad and heartbreaking, and it's all just--it's brutal and real.

I'm mainly writing to ask this, though: If you don't have any designs for a sequel, would you mind if I tried my hand at one? I have ideas for one floating around in my head, and I've written recovery stories before. I just--I really need to see that Alfred will come out okay.

Here's a sample of my writing, if you'd like to see it: http://hetalia-kink.livejournal.com/15220.html?thread=38538612#t38538612. I've also written other fics on the subject--just ask if you'd like to see.

I'll understand f you'd rather me not, but...either way, thank you for writing a fill both realistic and heartrending at once.

Not try trying to influence author!anon here, but it's kind of awesome to see such an awesome writer inspired to write a sequel for someone's else heart-rending awesome story. <3

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I'm not the author, but I approve of you doing a sequel.

OMG Serenity!Anon!

While I'd really want a sequel written by the author, I'd love one written by you too~

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I am well familliar with/a huge, HUGE fan of your works, and I will spare you a recreation of the epic irl freak out I had upon realizing that one of my favorite authors on here wanted to do a sequel of something I'd written.

I didn't exactly have plans for writing a sequel, though I did figure something would have to be added, like an epilogue. To be honest though, I've never written a recovery story before, and I'm terrified I'd mess it up, so I'm really happy that someone far more experienced than I offered to write it.

Tl;dr, I'm honored that you want to write a sequel, and I'm confident that you'll do a great job. Go for it! :D

_{Just a minor request, though... I have a bit of backstory for Arthur, because I didn't get to write anything from his POV. When Alfred called him, his father had just died, leaving the entire corporation in his hands ( I kinda mentioned it in one scene, with the newspaper). It's not that he hated Alfred, it's that he was really stressed and upset. Just, like, if you wanted some background on Arthur for the sequel. You don't need to use this, though! I'll be happy with whatever you write!}

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Eh, I know it's been awhile, but I just discovered this wonderful fill and I see that you offered to write a sequel. Out of curiosity (and a deep, burning desire to read it, obviously), did that sequel ever get written?

Oh, my god, so beautifully horrible...and I mean that in all of the best ways! BRB, crying my eyes out...

~~*hopes for sequel*~~

I might be in the minority of folks, but I'm not upset with Arthur in this. It's heartbreaking, and horrible the way things happened to Alfred, however...
With the number of ways that teenaged runaways can get into without delving into human trafficing (And the way that human trafficing is not as well known as a danger in the US as say prostitution)-- for all Arthur knew, the kid who left a big 'Fuck you' note before he left after a lot of troubled behavior was in jail for trespassing, or stealing a car, or something rather ordinary. I didn't catch the bit where his father had just died -- but now that I do, yes, that kind of stress can also add on. Another possibility for him was that Alfred had just found out, and was looking for a handout, just like a few hundred other people (This is what happens when a wealthy man dies... unscrupulous relatives circle like buzzards).

I did find the story well written, and, as I said, heartbreaking for both characters.
A sequel would be nice although this stands well on its own.
Thank you, Writer!Anon.

I am, apparently, the only person that thought Arthur reacted realistically and logically, with the information he had at his hands, and after the trauma of being tossed away and abandoned by his brother after treating him well and trying to take care of him and making him feel welcome in his home. Oh, well.

Your rendition of human trafficking has totally devastated me, the moment I remembered how many people in the world are subjected to this, and no Prince Charming super rich Arthur to rescue them. Good god, that was heartwrenching, and absolutely horrifying in a good way. I especially liked the way they erased his name and identity, because it's done really subtly.

And I loved Arthur, as I said. I love that he didn't come to the rescue after that call, unrealistically being forgiving in those circumstances. I don't blame him. I just hope he can make everything right again, now that he knows what happened.

One of the things that made the story work for me so well was how incredibly selfish Alfred started out, and still how sick you feel when you read the things he's subjected to. Without Alfred bearing the blame of running away from home dismissing his loved ones' feelings, I'd lose that, and that's why I don't consider Arthur to blame at all.

I hope for a sequel, just like everybody else ^^

Basically seconding everything you said, especially that Arthur reacted realistically and logically.

I'm a fan of short, through comments that get out the emotions that anon feels without using up too much space and making filler anons eyes bleed due to overreading...I can't write one of those though so I apologize for long-ass comment!

Op is here and I will try to give this wonderful , realistic, heart wrenching fill the proper comment it deserves.

The story started off pretty fast. It was like getting splashed by cold water and then watching a train wreck due to how utterly, devastatingly realistic it seemed. Don’t ever worry about making something too brutal (unless the op specifically tells you to knock it down a peg or two) when you know it will get across the reality of a situation.

I was a bit afraid that the person filling wouldn’t make it ‘realistic’ and sugar coat things (I’m near people who do, this has nothing to do with the kink meme) but to get a fill that’s so well written and realistic made me 1 happy and 2 incredible sad for those who are going through this. Reading stories like this remind me about my humanitarian dreams. Now on to through analysis of the characters, please tell me if I missed or screwed up on anything!

First of all, I feel that although Arthur was a complete asshole for hanging up like that I can understand why. He was going through stress, his father just died (?), and he seemed to have wanted to protect Alfred from more pain before he ran away so Alfred just leaving like that would have killed him. I’m pissed that he didn’t realize the call came from a different country (it was right?) though. THAT should have told him something was up. I take it Alfred had no more loose change to call back which is one of the reasons he waited for Arthur too?

Also, I found it just a bit funny (and disturbing) that Alfred hardly ever mentioned his brother, or being comforted by him. Was Mattie more adaptable so he couldn’t help his brother or was he going through the same emotions but just the more rational one??
I also feel that Arthur got his karma what with realizing he was about to have sex with a person sold into slavery , someone who was he’s own younger brother, and the fact that he must have realized this was why Alfred was so desperate all those years back when he called.
The fact that he knows he’s family is going to kill him if they ever found out he could have at least tried to help him makes it ten times worse so that guilt trip he’s feeling will be felt for the remainder of he’s life.

Which is why I don’t think he’s so much of a jerk, he’s human and made a mistake due to the turmoil he was going through and is now paying for it dearly.

I also did not think Alfred was selfish. He was a young /child/ who lost he’s parents and had to go through episodes of this: “Sure, Arthur Kirkland had been Alfred’s best friend since before he could spell, had gotten him into and out of all sorts of mischief and was there when he woke in the middle of the night, cursing and crying softly because he couldn’t remember their voices, their faces.” The trauma of being old enough to remember a mother or a father’s touch and love but still young enough that you can forget their voices, their faces…that must have been devastating. Alfred wasn’t coping well and should have been put into therapy.

A child who feels so much sadness and /anger/ over the loss of his or her parents would have needed some sort of counseling or the feelings would have obviously festered and he would have grown angered with what he/she could have in order to have some control over his/her feelings. In Alfred’s case it was the Kirklands. They weren’t good enough, would never be good enough, to replace Alfred’s “All American” parents and when Arthur /tried/ too (though he may have just been trying to help and not realized how badly Alfred would have taken it) that was the last straw for Alfred who felt that by getting close to them would have meant forgetting he’s own family. Really, he deserved some therapy and I don’t think he was selfish.

He wasn’t doing the /right/ thing or the /responsible/ thing (or even the safe thing!) by running away and I don’t condone such rash behavior but I can understand why he did it. That ending :

“Alfred’s never thought of living with the Kirklands’ as home. He hasn’t felt at home since his parents died.

But he nods, mainly because he has forgotten how to say no.” <<<oh god _sobs_ Just shows how hurt Alfred was before all of this and really makes me weep over the fact that no one ever realized how much he was suffering. The ‘fuck you’ note and the fact he couldn’t adapt to his new life and quirky, loving family may have been one of those ‘You need to move on and live your own life not dwell’ moment but I understand why he ran away. Hopefully the therapy he will be getting in the present will go all the way back to the beginning and see the roots of the entire problem started when he was very young. ANOTHER ouch factor for Alfred,Arthur and the Kirklands. I did cry when I saw how brainwashed he became, that he’d fuck he’s own step brother in order to not be hurt and because he was so used to it. The drugs will be a pain to get out of he’s system and I hope Arthur helps take down the ring. Where was this story in though? I keep thinking somewhere like Belarus, Ukraine, or Russia (and is it weird that my first impression of the girl with the broken English was younger version of Ukraine?)? Also the Kirkland’s mother die too or did only the father die? Did no one else realize Alfred called or become suspicious when they saw an unusual, foreign number or did they know too??? Actually Im thinking Matthew will be more hurt then Arthur. Alfred was HIS twin brother, the one that went through the same things he did, and the one who was coping badly so I'm sure Matthew will feel horrible for not helping...;; I seriously hope for a sequel! Whoever does it (you or the anon) …please post a link, please? I hope you try to (because you have nothing to worry about if you write like this!). Perhaps, do some research on the subject and then just write. You can really pull someone in and make it all seem surreal at the same time. I wonder if he would become one of those people who talk about their experiences and help others? He DOES love helping so...

...as you can tell I had a lot of time on my hands today.

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My chest hurts so much anon and I'm actually crying right now. This is amazing. I love how realistic everything is, the atmosphere, the tension...GUH, I'm sorry but I'm incomprehensible right now. I lost it when Alfred didn't recognize Arthur at first and I just felt the HEARTBREAK there. *goes back to crying in a corner*

I agree with a couple of the later anons in a way, in that it's not exactly Arthur's fault. Again, there's too much trouble for homeless teens to get into, and Arthur had no way of knowing what Alfred was up to. I also agree that he should have considered where the call was coming from, though. But this...this fill. It's so painful, but the realism of it is the worst part. This kind of thing really happens, every day. ; ; It sucks to know that. Sure makes us thankful for what we've got, doesn't it?

I'm going to cut my comment off here before I start repeating myself. >> Sorry for the lousy review/waste of kink meme space. I really should be better at this by now.

Also?

Captcha says: the humorist

What the hell were you reading, captcha?!

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FUCK I'M CRYING IN AN INTERNET SHOP FUCK YOU ARTHUR HOW COULD YOU JUST DO THIS ERHASLFHALSDFHLKTFHLSKDAFHLSKDHFLKHFLHFLSDHFLKHFLKHLSDKH

sweet goodness, anon, i rarely cry at fanfics and jgf,agfkagfkasgfklasg CONGRATULATIONS. I am so bookmarking this forever.

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