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Hetalia Kink meme part 15

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Backing up to the door, he opens it with his body and smiles as he both lets her through and doesn't see the vast expanse before him. Gilbert clenches his hand, allowing the pain of his fingernails digging into his palm to distract himself from the surroundings and the fact that he's walking, dread like treacle around his ankles where before there had been air. Natural instinct tells him to run, sprint until he's a broken mess at home not here, but since he's with Emily, it's impossible to do so. She looks a little confused when he starts walking as fast as his lead legs will allow, but with a small explanation that this is (has become) his natural walking pace, (there is a small flash of something like understanding or recognition in her eyes, but he didn't look to see - that would require seeing the whole park behind her, and he hasn't the courage) she walks faster.

Soon, (not quick enough for him) they arrive at the cafe, and he sits in the very corner of the room, back pressed to the walls and he feels safer.

From there, conversation finally blooms and flows, not as smooth as between two old friends but with a natural enough timbre to be a sign of something longer and more meaningful than one meal out. But of course, it would come to a point of discomfort, as is only normal between two persons attending a therapy group, especially since they both know, and the scales of knowledge are tipped towards Gilbert, as he knows, to an extent, why Emily is at the group. He could tell that she's been looking for a tactful way to ask, but ignored it.

"Why do you sit like that?" It's a fair enough question really, after reviewing Gilbert's current posture: crammed into the corner with his legs bent in front of him, almost crouching but not quite. Coupled with his darting eyes with survey the room every few minutes, it is an odd position, and doesn't look entirely comfortable.

"It's because- because I hate space. I hate spaces." He doesn't use his label not because he doesn't like it, but so it isn't so plain, so clear cut. One thing so rarely fits into the box of something else, thus jigsaws are idealistic things.
A slender golden eyebrow of hers rises, and he knows what is coming.
"Why?" The question is asked before thought yet after the chance for revoking. She almost apologises, but remembers that talking helps some people and leaves the word hanging in the atmosphere.

"When I'm ready to accept the reason myself, I'll tell you. How about it?"

And they smile. Not for hope, despite the situation being laden with it. No - they grin at each other because the truth yells so loudly, yet silently: it'll get much, much worse before it gets better. They smile for the lack of happiness to come, in the times when they'll need a friendly face most yet a smile will be the last thing on their minds.

It'll take a thousand nightmares...
...to reach the dream we've been waiting all our lives for.

And there you go! I'm actually rather pleased with this one, and I hope you enjoyed it too.

Notes: Here, Gilbert suffers with agoraphobia, or the fear/hate of wide open spaces. I'm not sure how well this was portrayed, but hopefully it came across as slightly realistic?
My thoughts as to why he has this are that he had a long-term girlfriend who was one of those one in a million matches to him, and that was the only close relationship he had - until she died after an accident. He was left with no one to turn to, and felt completely lost in life. He doesn't like open spaces because there's a high chance of getting physically lost, which he wouldn't cope with well. Also, he's afraid something similar might happen to him.

But that's just my thoughts! Feel free to share yours, whether they're good bad or indifferent~ ^ ^

:] This is lovely, anon. <3 The anxiety seemed real to me, though I can't say if you accurately portrayed agoraphobia or not, since I've never had it.

I want more of this. :[ Pleasepleaseplease.

Thank you very much for your comment!
I'm flattered you want more, thank you! What kind of thing did you have in mind?

you've got agoraphobia down pretty well, as far as my experience goes - I'm only mildly so, but every now and then . . . I have to run home. If I'm inside, I'm fine, outside . . . it gets weird.

I love how Gilbert and Emily are managing, btw - awesome fill.

I'm glad I managed to portray it, thank you!
*hugs*

^ ^ Thank you very much for commenting!

That was great! I was a little confused at first, since I'd never heard of this problem, but I think you conveyed the anxiety quite well. It's such an interesting problem for Prussia to have, especially with the following consequences of loneliness and being unable to deal with his issues, etc. Which is why I found this awesome:

It's the only significant space that feels normal, because it's loud and fun and a nice atmosphere. So much so he actually forgets that he was ever Gilbert, and instead he is Prussia, an arrogant person who isn't ignored, is lonely but does something about it, has seen too many tragedies but has got over them and is a strong person for it. He jokingly yells at Austria. He flirts with Hungary. Him, France and Spain all go around drinking wine from who-knew-where and he's on top of the world.

It's interesting he doesn't go for a completely different person, but someone who has similar problems but deals with them. It gives me a very good and hopeful feeling for him, because it means he's not running away from his problems, or at least not completely. His last line broke my heart a little, though (and it fascinated me that he doesn't know anything about his friends' problems, actually. He knows some about England, America and Austria, but nothing about Spain and France, actually)

I liked the problems he hints at about others, and Canada was a wonderful character, her (and wow, was that unexpected) problem is also really fitting, and I can identify with it a lot (wouldn't be the first time I wanted to be a boy, myself). I think you did a great job with their incipient relationship, whatever the kind.

Great job, author anon!

Thank you very much! ^ ^ I'm glad you liked it~

In truth, I only picked a few countries that I could think of possible problems for, but it occurred to me that the Bad Friends Trio are among the loudest, most confident people, so they'd probably be the quietest about their problems.
But that still leaves America, so I'll be quiet with my flawed half-theory. > >

Thank you for reading, I'm glad you enjoyed it!

but it occurred to me that the Bad Friends Trio are among the loudest, most confident people, so they'd probably be the quietest about their problems

Oh, wow, I love this theory so so much. Thank you again ^^

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