Sees Alfred’s thoughtful face, probably the first and last time someone will ever see it, hangover turning back to intoxication when Alfred turns his head to survey the ceiling as if his best answer will come from it, brushes his hair into Arthur’s lips, this time Arthur kisses it.
A sigh that sounds painful, “I just decided… I just kept thinking… how did you feel Arthur? This whole time knowing this. Knowing what we are, yet still loving me. True, I thought, you must have loved me as a brother from the start, but at some point. You fell in love with me for me didn’t you? But you can’t just get rid of one set of feelings because you favour the other- knowing you it was an even scale to begin with.”
“Alfred…”
“You must have thought, I can’t have both. So I won’t have them at all, right? But even that didn’t work out, and here we are. It wasn’t that we’re related that drove me insane, it was just- how could you do all those things because of it? And when I thought why and it hurt even more. Arthur-”
Who’s telling himself not to cry again, already done so much.
“-I just wanted to know if you love me, wanted you to say it and mean it. Do you?”
Gives up, a sob again, “Yes! Of course I do you fool!”
“Can’t you say it? One more time?”
He’ll say it a thousand more times, forever- “I love you!”
“Hmm, who? Who is it you love Arthur?”
“I love you, Alfred! You! Don’t give me such cheek, brat.”
Feels Alfred press him into the back of the couch.
Elastic people [60/?]
(Anonymous) 2010-01-28 01:15 am (UTC)(link)Sees Alfred’s thoughtful face, probably the first and last time someone will ever see it, hangover turning back to intoxication when Alfred turns his head to survey the ceiling as if his best answer will come from it, brushes his hair into Arthur’s lips, this time Arthur kisses it.
A sigh that sounds painful, “I just decided… I just kept thinking… how did you feel Arthur? This whole time knowing this. Knowing what we are, yet still loving me. True, I thought, you must have loved me as a brother from the start, but at some point. You fell in love with me for me didn’t you? But you can’t just get rid of one set of feelings because you favour the other- knowing you it was an even scale to begin with.”
“Alfred…”
“You must have thought, I can’t have both. So I won’t have them at all, right? But even that didn’t work out, and here we are. It wasn’t that we’re related that drove me insane, it was just- how could you do all those things because of it? And when I thought why and it hurt even more. Arthur-”
Who’s telling himself not to cry again, already done so much.
“-I just wanted to know if you love me, wanted you to say it and mean it. Do you?”
Gives up, a sob again, “Yes! Of course I do you fool!”
“Can’t you say it? One more time?”
He’ll say it a thousand more times, forever- “I love you!”
“Hmm, who? Who is it you love Arthur?”
“I love you, Alfred! You! Don’t give me such cheek, brat.”
Feels Alfred press him into the back of the couch.
“I love you too.”